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2006-01-01T11:01:00.000+08:00

happy new year!!!!!!!!!!! whee~

hee wishes everyone who read this...

happy forever

may everyone stay pretty, handsome, beautiful and drop dead gorgeous.

have a life filled with happiness, love, care and concern.

may 2006 be the a year without tragedy-

happy 2006!

2005-10-22T18:01:00.000+08:00

hEy!!

I'm back. haha. actually, i'm giving up this blog already. lolx. was so busy with exams and stuffs, so.. yah, no time to blog lor.

was online and talking to Wind, and he told me to check my blog.. something bout having cobwebs. lolx. and i realised... i'm ignoring alot of people here yah? okies. so updates.

to zhangfan:
eh, i'm not updating because im busy lah. u know what. lolx.

to ningxin:
hey, long time no see too. misses u. hmm, going to e jc that wants me. lolx. yep. hope to see u soon!

to Noraa:
after prelims means Os coming. lolx. haha. anyway, thanks for the cd. =)

to Zhirong:
love u too!

to Pearl:
eh... I'm ang hee lah. who else...

to wind:
glad that u sort out ur thoughts. dun be so bothered it ok? u'll meet someone one day. =) jia you too!

okies. done. now, i'm going back under my blackets to study k? everyone mug hard!! and may the 18th Nov come quickly. =)

so we said our goodbyes
with dried tears and no words

my memories of u went with the dust in the wind...

2005-07-23T12:29:00.000+08:00

This is bad... This blog stayed stagnant for like..hmmm... a month plus plus? haha. seriously, with so many things to do, i doubt i have any time to blog here. *sigh*

With the O levels and prelims on their way, there's alot of mugging to do. and yes, the computer is distracting, so...

Im officially putting this site on a extremely LONG haitus.

that's it.

after i finish my O level, im probably going to spend the rest of my holidays here where my occupation will be:
-slacker/ anime-lover/ couch potato

oh gosh, i am so looking forward to that day.

live ur life without me...
for i am not the one u need
hate me, despise me
whatever it is
leave
for thy's not worth me crying

2005-06-06T18:15:00.000+08:00

yawnx. so tired!!! bleahx. anyway, the previous quizzes...erh...sry bout the pics. didnt want it to be like that anyway. hahax.

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dunno how come these days arh, so many people playing the crush007 thingie. hahaa. so darn funny. i thought it was meant to be outdated...yrs ago? mann, im slowww. oh yah! do u know? there's a new version on gunbound?? i didn't know till today! and rite, for 'i'm the king of the castle'? i've learnt alot from the lit seminar at st. nics. specially love their phrase 'his name is kingshaw, but he is no king'. make sense? haha. had lots of fun seeing kok ann x-dress and cool! i do find them entertaining and yeah...cold... haha. imagine someone tells u that his pill is green becuase he left the pill on the grass and chlorophyll diffuses into it. hahaa. funni. so funny.

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had fun today too. going to RELC to, once again, revise lit. 4 seminars on the 1st 2 weeks of the holidays. kinda tiring. especially, all of them are lit seminars. haha. now i can hear the qoutes inside my head. 'blurbbbb'

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watever it is, i just wanna go to...

ZZZZzzzzzzzZ

tata-

2005-06-02T17:21:00.000+08:00

Quizzes! bahx. under the temptations from zhang fan! whee~

You are the warrior anime girl.You are the type
that can start a fight and win.You are very
strong and can beat anyone up (but just don't
^_~) and some people can be afraid of you but
alot of people admire your strength and want to
be just like you well the people that want to
fight.You can defend yourself very easily and
can probably handle some kind of weapon.You
have a short temper(like me)and get angry
easily but you can be really nice at times
^_^and once a fighter always a fighter.

If You Were An Anime Character What Would You Look Like?(Girls Only)
brought to you by quizilla

you represent the begining of life. you are bright
and cheerful and love being who you are!

What part of life do you represent? ( AWESOME anime pics ^_^)
brought to you by quizila

Your soul is caring.
Other people are your concern, even if you
don't know them. If you see a person trip you
worry is he is okay. You put your loved ones
first and you're very mature. When someones
sick you're nurturing and always try to help
family and friends when failure strikes them.
You can be called the motherly one, if you are
in a group of people, which doesn't have to be
bad. Love is something that's already in you
and you have a lot to give whether you believe
it or not. Your friends probably love you very
much and come to when they need help since
you're reliable. People can feel secure with
you and generally like you.

How is your soul?(pics)
brought to you by quizilla

You like the ones that understand you.

What kind of guy are you most attracted to? (CUTE anime pics)
brought to you by quizilla

thats all for now! bleahs. =))happy holidaes!

2005-05-30T20:03:00.000+08:00

oh well, this is the first week ok the holidays! have been packing my stuffs and prepare for O level battle. haixxx. sianz.

went back to school today for miss yee's lecture, on literature. not bad i guess, i learn quite alot from her. jiaming, keeyann, marie and i conclude that she is a good literature teacher, teaching with an extraordinary technique! haha. we had quite alot of fun giggling, learning and erh... imagining? *innocent look*

after that, marie, kee and me went to kfc to eat. as we only left 1/2 an hour before the lit discussion, we took a taxi. uh huh, then we gobble down our food. haha. then me and marie walked back to school lah. in the end ne? we are still the earliest, since kok ann told them it was 1330, and i remembered i say 1300... heh. *shrugs*

so, we did the discussion. kok ann, ding hong, marie, deborah and me. lolx. we joke and do work lah. very funny. think marie is an extremely good entertainer. we laughed and laughed non-stop! bad bad. haha. those 2 guys are damn funny too! very easy to get along i guess, can talk and joke at ease.

haixx. miss low's wedding coming! this saturday..i wonder what the fourKers bought for her... hmmmm, i hope it is something good worx. lolx.

looking forward to the saturday!

2005-05-24T21:28:00.000+08:00

I hate him.
I hate him.
I hate him.
I hate him.
I hate him.
I hate him.
I hate him.
I hate him.
I hate him.
I hate him.
I hate him.
I hate him.
I hate him.
I hate him.
I hate him.

I. Hate. him.

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ANYWAY,
4k rawks on! whee~ so happy. we are in the fianl for both boys and gals! whee~ haha. so so so happy! cant wait till tmr to see the finals. all the way people!!! =))

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if only i wasn't so dumb. so stupid. so blind. then maybe, i will not be able to hate u.

2005-05-23T13:20:00.000+08:00

one whole week of mixed feelings! shrugs.

well, my family and I went all the way to Yisun Safra to EAT our lunch. erh, it's not really on purpose lah. went to celebrate a belated mother's day for my beloved grandmother who loves the safra's restaurant's food. okies. it was a disappointment. the food wasn't as nice and hmmm, we conclude that my mom and grandmother can cook better. *winks* haha.
after that, we went to my cousin's house to celebrate his birthday. lolx. so funny. i guess my family seems to have weird ideas on 'how to wrap a present'. lolx. imagine this, you saw a big big present, yet..it felt extremely light. then u open, and find lots of newspaper and only a piece of note that says happy birthday and a silver-plated bookmark. haha. that's the exact same thing that my mom did for my bro's birthday. family tradition? i'll agree.

had an awfully embarassed and funny time with sinee last week as well. lets see, we went to long johns and realise we dun have enough money. lolx. it's like we both empty our wallets and realise we are short of 5 cents. 5cents!! it was like.. "erh...shall we beg?" haha. okies. we DID NOT go and beg. solution? I found a buck inside my bag. just call ourselves lucky. =)

interclass was exciting, freaky and well, amusing? lolx. we screamed, flustered and laughed seeing the guys play their match. hmm, before the rain come pouring down, they are leading. the girls were abit more tense. most of the time were screaming and yelling. nothing else. and before the rain come pouring down, the score is 1 all.

sighx. well, im still in a mess. trying to re-organise my time and everything. i can't help to get away from school asap. it's like it holds so many things that i don't want to remember, so many people that i don't want to see, so many voices that i don't want to hear. aww, such a coward. lolx. yeah, i just want to run. away from this.

away, far far away.

2005-05-15T18:03:00.000+08:00

140505
eds nite 2005
abracadabra
[seeing]

It was such an experience! we met in school at 8 in the morning. settle some stuffs and run through the whole concert once.
Then, we had lunch! =) well, we mass order for a mass delivery of Mac. lolx. it took them 2 motorcycles to deliver our food. although there were some missing hamburgers and soggy fries, i guess we all enojy a break after a rehearsal.
Bathed, change and ready for the aftnn show. of all luck, i caught a cold. blehx. i didnt really performed well for the aftnn one though.. i had tears running down my face and eyes as red as dates. lolx. bad bad. the principal came for the aftnn one too!! and not to forget, Roysten! he bought all of us roses. puiyee, pauline and shiyi came too, all with flowers. =)
the night one was better. my cold seems to subside a little for me to smile on stage. sinee, kee yann and marie came to visit me too! was glad that almost the whole auditorium is filled.
This year's audiences were GREAT! They laughed when they were suposed to and whoa, they were very very 'active'. haha.
the day ended like about.. 10+ ? ZzzzZ

140505
eds night
abracadabra
[feeling]

i felt honoured to be performing
i felt happy when i received the gifts
i felt sick when i caught a cold
i felt high when the show ended sucessfullly
i felt anger when i remember e promise
i felt extrememly happy that ee, kee, and marie went
im relieved that bobo went home to marie
i felt tired...after everything.

140505
eds night
abracadabra
[thanking]

thank yous to pauline, shiyi, jayne, puiyee, yingtong, roysten for the beautiful flowers.
thank yous to carmen (cookie) and kenneth (chocolate)
thank yous to sinee, kee yann, marie, claire, xinhui, ojx , hua zhou and my family for coming.
Thanks to mr ken, mrs vora and miss kheng for their efforts
thanks to everyone who went to the concert
thanks to eunice chew who let me see the truth
lastly,
thanks to all eds members who gave me this wonderful memory

shine on. no matter where u are *

2005-05-11T21:21:00.000+08:00

Im annoyed. Im irritated. Im pissed off and Im probably the saddest person on earth!

One BIG O level thingie spoils everything. It haunts my life, it makes my life into a nightmare and the school a haunted mansion or something. Greats. Everybody changes! They are like studying machines banging themselves into the books and complaining how low their marks is and lost all sensitivity towards other people's feelings etc! Just because WE are in SEC 4 and because we have on big exam coming our way.

okies. im over-reacting again. arghx. fine. I do agree that the Os are important. I do admit that im working harder than usual. I do admit that my results are bad, or lets just say very very lousy. I know, i know. all these things i know. but why are people around me changing so much? why?! I don't understand. It's like suddenly, the whole exam thing come first and everyday's talk is tests tests and tests. It's like so competitive, so dangerous and everything became cold and distant.

but...
sacrificing a precious promise
for an exam...
I guess what jiaming said is right. No matter what, this year is a crucial year. Our 'O' levels is important. Very important. Everyone have different feelings for it, so everyone will change. It's natural.
~*

may everyone pass with flying colours.
all the best -

2005-04-27T18:24:00.000+08:00

sigh... it's wednesday. yeah, think i flopped big time for maths test today. hahaha. i dunnoe. god, i din realise it was a right-angled triangle and what was i doing with cosine rule?? guess i made a big blunder this time. oh, SE got their gold with honours. =)) congrats!!

well, im so tired and hot. the sun just wanted to start melting people these days. i'll probably turn liquid soon too. argh. what else... there are tests, tests, and more tests. courses etc. ahh, so many things to do!! im feeling so disorganised already!

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im talking to my bro alot these days. find many things in common between us. oh well, maybe i understand how he feels better. i dunnoe why, but he reminds me of someone... someone whom i got so near of understanding, yet he walked away. perhaps, it was my fault afterall.

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finally, i finished 104 episodes of inuyahsa, =)) haha. it was great sia! happy ne. shall try to download bit tornado...which yt claims to be good. =))

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sayonara to u. always.

2005-04-24T11:02:00.000+08:00

it's suday again. sianzation. why do weekends come and go so quickly? sigh. still have so many things to do. bleh.

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went marine parade library to study yesterday afternoon, after eds session. oh right, we are NOT suppose to do self study in the library at ALL times during weekends. hahaa. not to mentioned that we got questioned by the librarians 3 times! to avoid the situation, we borrowed the library maths book as reference to our maths homework. -_-0 good thing i managed to finish my integration.

oh! i met romario too!!! he still look and sounds the same. haha. one good thing, im still taller. >.<>

after that, we went off to parkway mac to eat and talk. talk and talk till 5 plus. im glad i still have a positive influence to some people. hahaa.

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let's see, i've spent about $70 bucks on presents on friday. went to tm with tien, zf, qing, ice and crystal. lolx. bought all the presents, except for tien's. (i would have bought hers if she didn't tag along). i do hope the people like their presents! =)

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still have many things to do... tata. <3

2005-04-17T10:26:00.000+08:00

Ahh, so long never blog le. Yep, i changed my layout. well, im not an artist lar, so the layout turn out to be abit plain. haha.

yeah...alot of things happened during these days. I didn't want to blog it down though, cause if i do, this entry will probably never end.

anwyay, sorry to those who tagged and i never reply them.
sorry to carmen, ur present is coming. dun worry. i'll never forget.=)
sorry to pple who changed their add and yes, the blur me forgot to change.

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im running on a long long streak of bad luck these days. my grades are falling, bad things kept happening. when is this going to go??

[130405] i felt lost. i felt so quiet. emotionless i guess. it was 4p.m. when the sms came. i just walked and walked. i expected myself to cry out loud or something. but that feeling didnt come. i just feel, lost and empty. well, then lots of other sms came in. i was touched. remembered all the hard times we went through. there was so must friendship and feelings. then, i left my handphone inside the cupboard and let the tears flow.

i'll never forget the times we had together

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went down to bedok to sell flags for the down syndrome association. well, it's kinda fun. walking around, smiling at people and collecting coins. yvonne came down to donate too!! so kind of her right? thank you wor. hmmm, i made my class pple laugh by mistaking eggs as the colection tins. lolx. how blur can i get??

after that, i went to the movies. watched pacifier (is it spelled like that?). the show was funny!! hahaa. i couldn't help laughing throughout the whole show!! oh well, i like the humor in there. and for the first time in my life, i wore a skirt into the cinema. haha.

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life is filled with different tastes.
go on, be brave to taste
hold on tight
cause ur life
will be a rainbow in the nite

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the story between he and her ended. the story will be freezed. no matter how much effort put in to thaw it, it will be sealed forever.

2005-03-20T20:59:00.000+08:00

yes. heex is going on haitus. AGAIN. who cares? lolx. im going to get a new skin alriteX? and yes, too many things happen these days...no time to blog. i'll be back soon. thanks for all compliments and encouragements. eh..still tag though..will be missing ya!

stars falling on my nose...

2005-03-04T21:28:00.000+08:00

i never felt so depressed before. it wasn't just merely depressed. it was something that i cant explain, something so confusing, so irritating. i dont know what is going on with me already. it's like running on a streak of BAD luck. im like bumping into stones everywhere! it's just not me anymore...

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im feeling abit out. my emotional status is currently unstable. i wonder why...didn't i get out of that stage long ago? sighX. im like getting irritated over small things. even though i know that some things are NONE of my concern, i didn't know why i will get angered or fustrated. oh my...where on earth am i? maybe keex is right, i shouldnt worry about things that are none of my concern.. maybe i should try to let go, try to untangle the strings in my heart.

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sometimes, it's better to let go. dun put all the blame to yourself. it's useless. try relaxing, analysing and calm thinking. vonne and eunice, cheer up yah? things are brighter for u guys thn it's brighter for me. haha. just cheer up, relax...cause a smile can brighten up someone's day! just remember, im always here.

guess i wanna thanks vonne too. lolx. for listening to my fustrations. i didnt mean to though..just hope u dun mind. hmm, thanks to eunice, zhang fan, crystal and denise for their willingness to listen to my stupid questions, cold jokes and nonsensical stuffs. me myself couldnt stand myself...i wonder how u gals did it?

thanks to kee, marie, ming and yan for always adding laughters into my day.

kee, your dp roX!

happy early bday to shanyan..stop being so childish. =)

special thanks to sinee... who always read my mind like a book.

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going to a concert tmr
so familiar this situation is
memories and regrets
came flowing back to me

wonder how different this will be
with an older me
without ur words and miss
without any risk

im going tomorrow
just to feel what it's like
to be there once again
away from your sight

still, the you of the past stays in my memories

2005-02-26T10:40:00.000+08:00

Never blogged for a long time liao..nearly 2 weeks. pretty busy last week with 3 days in one day. haha. sianzation worX.

Hmmm, lots to update. firstly, wanna wish these people a happy birthday and may all your dreams come true!
+ yvonne
+ aaron
+ muthu
+ liqin
+ eunice ting
+ jia ming
+ kee yann
+ althea
*now u know why im broke this month....=) *

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im feeling abit lost. here and there. so many things happened, so little time to solve and understand each case. im like de-grading already. i din do well for my tests, im getting weird thoughts in my head etc. im definately not doing what im suppose and want to do. oh my...whats wrong with me?

one whole week make me realise how idiotic i can be. i saw myself in her. totally. i understand her, yet, i knew that attitude irritates people. she irritates me too. but the point is there, she's older than me. she still thinks i don't understand her. she still thinks that the way she's acting is correct. she still thinks that im that little girl who dunnoe whats shes thinking. great.

the point is, i do. i had once acted like her before. i had once gone through that attitude of hers before. i know. but the problem is, i've learnt that it is not going to work, only making people hate u more! i've been trying to tell her so many times! and yet? she wouldn't listen! she just wouldn't want to admit that someone younger knows what she is going through! arghX. that is so irritating!

so easily pissed and irritated these days. sigh. should control! control! relax.

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well, at least there is one thing to be happy of. my cousin's getting married! whee~ im so so so excited. going to see her later. erh...okies. sadly, because of her, im not going to the 4K's reunion dinner at liz's house! sad! haha. hope all the fourKers have fun! rock on!

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alot of things in life are unexpected
it takes alot of courage to face them
it takes even more courage to look in others' point of view
to know that u are in the wrong
to know that u need to change

i know it hurts
but one just have to do it
i believe

u have the courage...

2005-02-13T18:20:00.000+08:00

how long haven i blogged? wonderS. oh well. shall update!! hahaX

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Chinese new year started on wednesday. collected many ang baos!! whoosh! it was so darn fun. oh, did i mentioned? i watched the whole set of Hunter X hunter from 330p.m. on tuesday till 1a.m. on wednesday?? man, the anime was great!! it's just tht the ending was so disappointing ne. wonder when is the next OVA coming out. im waiting!!

the second day of new year was alright. unfairnesS! i was upstairs baby-sitting and well, some guests arrive and gave ang baos...and i didn't get it!!! it was so unfair lah. $12 leh!! sighX.

went back to school on friday to celebrate. the concert was alright i guess....bet Mrs wong be very disappointed with the PA system. maybe the school can change the PA system after collecting the concert money. hmmmX.

went to EDs reunion dinner wif my juniors. haha. thank god they were there to accompany me. they are li mei, june and zi ning!! haha. these 3 people are so so amusing. they shop for stuffs in lightning speed!! i was like "wow"? hmm, was suppose to go with eunice one..thn too bad lah, something happened and she have to go home. =( sadX. thn yvonne came, and the juniors, later on. took neo print... and guess what..the machine broke down TWICE! how unlucky are we? haha. then yvonne have to go home cause she isn't feeling well. sad sia...

hmm, we ate pizza and pasta. lolx. i enjoyed my day though. muthu and claire are always so entertaining. haha. wanna thank claire for talking to me too. and pluS! my sec one junior is so darn cool! haha. we sat the same bus back home yah?

on the whole, our seniors look cooler than ever, the juniors are as funky as ever and we? as kawaii as ever. ahhahaa.

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tomorrow is valentine day liao. and guess what? me and sinee made cookies for my friends!! whee! well..it is first attempt lah. damn funny. our clearing time arh, is so much more than the backing time. wahahaa. then the cookies come out...eh..quite nice..but a bit too soft. then did alot of stupid things lah..like me trying to be funny and putting flour on sinee's face. haha. and she?? look wrongly lah. people says 3g of salt..she read as 30 g of salt. hahaaX. oh well, i hope people out there likes the cookies yah? forgive us lor. we'll try harder next time. =) hahaa.

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it's the day again
a year after the happiest memories
do u still remember?
or am i the only one
who still hangs on
till the very end

may true love be found

2005-02-05T10:00:00.000+08:00

feeling kinda relax since cny is coming. hmmm, looking forward to a happy chinese new year. haha. food, good food, great food and delicious food. whee~ haha.

oh well, i still need to get vdae presents!!! awwww...my list look long... haha.
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here, will like to thanks carmen!!! whoot~ she bought me the mayday's album for my bday!!! muackX luv her soooooooooooooo much! thanks carmen!!! =)

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went to eds's AGM yesterday. saw the sec ones. haha. Xcited!! cant wait for the ice breaking session and plus! the eds camp and eds nite!! whoo~ oh yah! eds idol too! hahaa. zhang fan in ne!my vote is definately to her. My nanny mah.... haha

dance was alright. learnt new move. heard the whole piece of music. i find it rather nice yah? haha. still have quite alot to do though, but i think we can do it. =)

cny dance people coming over later to dance. sighX. i do hope we put up a good performance. but one thing to be glad of, both the syf dance and cny dance brought me closer to the eds people. haha. try joining one of our session and u'll end up laughing back home. haha. oh well...

laughter is the best medicine after all...

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realised alot these days
that things are not what i imagine them to be
all along
it seems to be just illusions
or perhaps a play
with only me and my memories

im waking up now
realising how wrong am i
to dream this dream
to act in such a play
where everything's so fake
so unreal.

but to think back again
and to right at the present
perhaps all i wished
and fantasize
was for u to love...

without me.

2005-01-29T17:15:00.000+08:00

Chamomile Tea...You are Chamomile Tea.Your an original! Helpful to anyone in need and
always willing to lend a hand, you take action
but not through violence, people listen to you
for you have a knack for giving wonderful
advice! Many look up to you and you try your
best not to let them down. You have many
friends steadfast or no who consider themselves
lucky to be near you. You may have been hurt in
the past but you dont let that stand in your
way! You have a wonderful outlook on life and
try to see the good in people which is an
awesome gift!

What type of Tea are you? {-With Anime Pictures!-}
brought to you by Quizilla

2005-01-28T21:44:00.000+08:00

so much tears, so much pain, so many things to do, yet... so little time......

people around me are breaking down, one by one. it hurts to see them like this.

but

im in the same situation.

days just seem to be more and more miserable each day. dreams crushed. i felt so lost. crying doesn't make sense anymore. i am totally lost.

my parents dun understand. they do ask, they do care, but they dun understand. they dun understand why i feel stressed. then dun udnerstand why i cant let go of my studies for just a day to accompany them for shopping.

they dun understand.

i wonder if my words ever helped any of my friends. i tried talking to myself. telling myself the exact same things i told to my friends.

i felt so empty.

do they felt the same way too?

so broken. so incomplete. so restricted.

but then again, encouragements from my friends do get me out of this miserable state for a while. thanks to sinee, for being able to read my mind. thanks to yeetien, who always manage to cheer me up. thanks to zhangfan, who sat beside me to hear my grumbles. thanks to yvonne, who is always there for me, anytime, anywhere. thanks to denise, who allow me to cry in front of her. thanks to eunice chew, whose hugs are priceless. thanks to wan qing, whose words manage to wake me up. thanks to the eds people, who are there for dance on tuesday, whose words and hugs are always so comforting.

without them

i might not be able to stand up and try to walk again.

thanks a million

always

2005-01-23T10:03:00.000+08:00

Awww....im so sleeepppyyy! wahhaa. can't believe sinee is enjoying herself overseas with me here trying to get some sleep! arghX. ee! buy a bigger lugguage next time!!

haha. fine. slept for less than 10 hours. haven been touching any homework. went shopping on friday, the whole day. got tons of bruises from the squeezing and pushing in chinatown. awww, i was so darn pissed off when the woman behind me screamed to her handphone, which was held beside my ears (how in hell did it get there?=/ ) and whoa! my ears rang. wahaha. and do u know what she say? "oh yea, im trying to push my way out of here. wait for me, im pushing!" great. and my dad just turn over and told her, "oie. stop pushing" which is very sucessful i guess. whoopS. haha.

yvonne, zhangfan, wan qing, yeetien and eunice ting came over ytd for the CNY performance. Kinda productive i guess? oh well, at least we finished abt one minute plus of the song and hey, it wasn't exactly a good piece of music to dance to. we slacked...alot. wahahha. lots of 'lub u' stuffs and WWE on my bed. gosh! can u imagine? MY BED! yvonne was very hardworking though. she did her hoemwork, wrote testimonials for all of us and she FIXED my COM! whee~ im so so grateful. thanks VoN!

there goes another day. gone. finished geog workbook and self-introduction though. cant do social studies since i forgotten to bring my textbook home and has not much common sense left aft ytd. trying to finish literature now, but is so darn bored with 'hooper' and 'kingshaw' swimming in my head. having tuition later, which is another 4 hours gone. i still have tests to study, oh great, how am i going to finish??

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anyway, 4k's blog link up. carmen's new link up. check it out kaes? i still dun get who is the shawn and the amanda. whatever. perhaps 'they' can pay me a visit soon. wahhaha. thanks ee and aaron for the concern. im okies liao. haha. thanks.

~*
let it dance to the beat...1...2...3

2005-01-23T01:23:00.000+08:00

im tired.
very tired. sleepy.
i don't know why
but i think im slowing forgetting.
forgetting that you'll be always here

forgetting the promise of u, always being here...

2005-01-20T22:19:00.000+08:00

can u believe it? i cant. absolutely not. i mean, yea, i often hear or see such things on tv or in story books, but in my life?! i can't believe this is happening to me. my life.

my mom and my dad are angry at each other....

since when do they get angry with each other? it was always they against me and my brother. they are the team which always win! and now? they are angry at each other. god. i don't know what im feeling now.

i think im breaking down already. why do these things always happen together. oh well, must as well say all bad things happen together. yea, guess i wil take that as a fact.

~*
if i can wish upon a star and gets the wish granted,
i wish for everything to be back to normal...

2005-01-14T21:39:00.000+08:00

I'll never understand why I can't do well in physics. I'll never understands why on earth I don't understand physics and the others can. SighX. dun even feel like thinking bout' it.

went out with sinee and marie after school. we waited for quite a long time for bus 12. when it finally came, we were grumbling and complaining. gosh, half an hour for a bus! today was also sec one audition for EDS, i couldn't stay to watch. wonder how did it go? haha. hope we get some cute juniors this year!
we reached Bugis at like 145p.m.? three hungry gals went to get sushi to get the stomach filled. we took neoprints and great! we are so dumb that we didn't notice that we have to choose our photo inside and NOT outside. DUHX. it was like so freaking.
shop shop and shop. going out with marie is fun! haha. the contented look on her face when she gets something she like? she bought a necklace, emphasizing that she bought tht necklace in a shoe shop. haha. 3 pairs of earrings, which me and sinee had a hard time choosing for her. think we spend about 45 mins there. haha. then, we ate taekopachi! me and sinee got a little unwell after tht. lolx. marie was saying tht she is too happy and excited to feel any pain. then she brought us to MUJI, and introduce us the most delicious marshmallows! whoo~ thanks marie!!

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finally, me cousin is getting married!!! whao! im so excited! it's on the fifth of may, 2005! haha. bet she's hinting she want a $555 angbao. haha. im so excited and happy for her. all the best to u sis!

~*
feeling lost. extremely lost.
stressed.
i don't know what's going on anymore.
can someone just hold my hand and guide me?
can someone whisper to tell me that everything's fine?
because im falling
fast
faster that i can hold on
please
don't do this to me

please...
a hand, a warmth, for eternity

2005-01-08T13:21:00.000+08:00

thursday was my birthday. i know i should have blog earlier to thnk the people, but very sorry, i didn't have the time. lolx.

thank you all who had greeted me, including those who greeted me late. lolx. thanks the simple girls for the chocolate cake. haha. im damn touched. thank you 4K for the little celebration. both nearly made my tears roll.

thanks sinee for her present of 120 stars, a bottle, a hee thingie and the forever friends box. i love it lots!! muackS. thanks crystal for cute little globe thingie, it's so kawaii! thanks Benji, for somthing unexpected yet was touched by his effort and sincerity shown through the card. thank you all EDS peeps, for the biggest present this year! whoosh! I luv u guys! Cindy, thanks for everything. thanks to the weird bunch of people in my class: marie, kee yann, jiaming and shanyan for the operated doggie and the beautiful perlini silver necklace. gosh, though u gals drive me crazy sometimes, i love u gals too! =) thank you my beloved daughter, yee tien, for the tee and cool necklace. i love u too! thank you hua zhou, for the belated gift. it's sweet. so stop worrying it's lousy. lolx. thanks tweenie for her prexxies too. many thanks, for the hugs, for the greetings, for the teasing. i love it all. =)

thanks to my 3rd eldest cousin and her boyfriend for the popular vouchers. haha. get married soon will ya? i want an extra ang bao next year eh? thanks to my 4th eldest cousin, for the precious moments calendar. gosh, you are so so so so sweeeetX! I love ya so much! thanks to my aunt's family, for the 3 presents. haha. thanks my parents and the other aunts, for their ang boa. thanks for being there and encouraging me when i coulnd't walk on. thanks alot.

~*
this year's birthday didn't end up sad. i guess, it's kinda lucky eh? i was happy, very happy. i want to tell all my friends...
thanks
for being there whenever i need you guys. u guys may never know how u helped me through the times of darkness. whatever it is, thanks for making my birthday something memorable.

~*
it doesn't matter
anymore
because it was broken
too many times
i won't hold u back
any longer
so you are free
from today onwards
don't look back
to pity me
because i am now
sixteen

2005-01-04T17:45:00.000+08:00

It's only the second day of school and im already so tired. ahhhh, cant believe it. i've been lying on the sofa for the past hour, just thinking about today, yesterday, and the day before. it seems like only a minute ago all these things happened. sigh, my life is getting disrupted.

~*
today was sec 1 orientation. yvonne lost her file with the cd we needed. then decided to go to denise's hosue to take another cd. haha. though it was a little chaotic with fears and worriness, kinda like the idea of a teacher fetching us out of school. haha.

oh well, denise's house is full of mysteries. im eager to go there again u know? i mistook a big big wall for kitchen's door. i didn't know.... or was i dumb. haha. i am scared of dog, and forgotten that she had a dog. lolx. but good thing, she locked the dog in the kitchen! haha. and so cool, her mom on the radio for the dog to hear so it won't get bored yah? haha. so caring.

oh well, we went back at about 830. danced a few rounds, gotten a big, HUGE and weird looking blue-black. haha. i guess all the people who danced had a few. =)) it was so pianful that i cant even walk properly. ah... every step is painful ne? haha. i had fun though. oh yah, the sec ones look soooooooo cutez!! haha. some of them just look so innocent! muthu, eunice, matt, wai lumn and claire put up a good commedy. haha. actually, i like the humor. awww, in one word, i enjoyed myself today.

~*
No afternoon lessons today. Decided not to go to the concert afterall, since i was so tired. sin ee got sick though. so i decided to accompany her home. oh well, it's a long time since i took 30 and stop at eunos. perhaps for 3 to 4 months? after she left, i just walk. i didn't just want to walk to the mrt station... so i took a stroll around for 10 mins. then took the train home. so many memories...

~*
there's lots of things that i need to say. to say it out and not bury it. but then, i dun think i can. not now. everyone has their own problems to solve, own problems to take care of. now is not the right time.

~*
fallen in love with the song 'dearest' and 'fukai mori' from inuyasha. didn't know the language at first, but the tune was touching enough. felt so contented and consoled after listening. haha. so i recommend these 2 songs! their midis can be found on my webbie though. haha. becuase u are listening to fukai mori's midi. =) isn't it nice?

~*
had a long day today
too many memories
too many scars
too many unforgiven
too many akward
too many confusion
too many distractions

because
it was meant to be this way

2005-01-01T01:55:00.000+08:00

hahaa. muthu got me a new year prexxie. here it is! his own picture. haha. so 'sweeeeet' of him. heard that he was very generous and gave many people presents! haha. so nice of muthu. muthu, u roX. u can look at it at this webbie...
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v292/ashe89/muthu.bmp

haha. happy new year to all! with love.

2005-01-01T01:44:00.000+08:00

Aww, is it adorable? haha. yepz! a new year, a new layout. im pretty irritated by the tag board though. it's poking out. arghz. i need help. if u know how to fix it, please email me okies? the usual goldenlining89@hotmail.com. arigato. yeah! haha. and plus, the navbar. how to get rid of it arh? tell me asap ne? haha. many thanks!

it's like 12 46 now. better go sleep liao. muacks. blog next time. i need comments too!!

2004-12-29T18:56:00.000+08:00

man, I wanna change my layout!! arghz. need to find something nice. sighz...

~*
Had food poisoning a few days ago. it was really bad. had fever too. missed one dance session...erh...excluding the orientation ones....*oopS* had to put down the whole schedule for 3 whole days! arghz.

i guess, many things happened these few days too. just in 48 hours. many things are absolutely unpredictable.

~*
when things are not going your way
dun look down
face it with courage
because u are who we believe in
we believe in u
and thus
u must believe in yourself
because

tht's why we are here....
eien ni....
dun worry

2004-12-25T22:15:00.000+08:00

Ho Ho Ho! Merry Christmas! Whee~ May all your wishes come true!!

~*
sighz. christmas christmas.
didn't feel like blogging actually.
just here crapping.
christmas is cool this year.
i got a happy house photo frame.
from the annual lucky draw.
lots of cards
lots of hugs

~*
i wonder how are the others doing. is christmas warm there?
my mom's asking for pizza.
im kinda full.
what to do?
*yawnz*

merry christmas to all~

2004-12-22T19:41:00.000+08:00

had been slacking these few days. was like getting fustrated over small little things. ddnt know what got into me.
treid very hard to calm myself down yesterday. but too bad. i ended up crying with anger when my parents told me it was silly to get fustrated.
fine. they dun understand.
they never did.
in fact, they act as though they understand. they can come into my room, telling me they know how i feel. yet, when i opened up to them, all i get is pain in the heart. they dun understand. they just dun.
now, i've decided to keep everything to myself. now they are complaining that i dun open up to them. and great, everything has its limits. my patience do too. i didn't want to shout and scream for such a matter.
as i say.. i didn't know what got into me.

~*
i went out with sin ee yesterday. lolx. im basically half asleep throughout the whole trip. wanna thank her for accompanying me to buy prexxies for my family members. oh well, although i still doubt her direction sense, but she proves to quite an expert. haha. mean eh?

ahhhhh, i've spent all the money i had. hey hey, ee, im as broke as u now. lolx.

~*
i felt really embarassed just now. my father's friend came to repair the kitchen's light. i didn't know he brought his son! then both of them came up to my room. i had my hi-fi blasting off and was i singing away? im not really sure. my hair was in a mess cause i was "experimenting" with the hairstlyes... then..they knock on my door. which was OPEN. (i was behind my cupboard's door, facing the mirror) i thought it was my bro, so i said 'come in' like...chirpily? then i felt weird...cause no one came in..then i closed the cupboard door...and saw both of them. oh gosh. i nearly want to scream. my father's friend said he wanted to check the roof. so i said yeah, u can come into my room to check. and his son was like smiling all the way outside and looking at me. ahh, i didnt know what to do! then i stayed and like follow my father's friend around, showing him the rooftop and hell, that guy was like smiling and looking throughout.

then then, they prepare to leave. they went down the stairs. and ahh, he was like smiling and smiling and looking at me. i was like praying for him to go quickly so i can go to the mirror and see whats wrong with me. i figured it was my home clothes i guess. then i had no choice and waved bye. hahaa! that was an absolute duhzzz. i sent them off at the door, and then he shyly walk out. dotzz. i really really dunnoe what to say.

~*
life's getting weirder and weirder everyday. now... what is going to happen tomorrow??

*thanks crystal for the vcds. muackx*

2004-12-19T11:28:00.000+08:00

the last entry... a poem... is some kind of story based. u can find it on fictionpress.com. if u have written poems or any story, get an account and post it there. =)

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im getting restless now. 5 and half hour more, i'll be at the esplanade recital hall, waiting to perform. i can tell u now, it's nothing to brag. i didn't like this kind of performance. it always never fail to give me the creeps. the fact of me being too nervous or too cold to play a perfect piece, never gets into my parents' ears. gowns, hair accesories, etc. arghz, after so many years, i still have the fear of going on the stage. man...this is bad...

i didn't like it, not because i do not like piano, not that i had stage fright or whatsoever. it's just pressure. u get creeps when people stare at u and talk. it's weird. and when people could play tht well and u cant, it's even worse. confidence level is absolute zero. and what more, people didn't practise as hard as u and yet could play even better than u on stage. wah! see? it just get more and more pressurizing. didn't like such events. just couldn't force myself to like it.

*thumps* *thumps* okies. my heart rate is probably abnormal now. have to go practise. im crossing my fingers for the nite.

2004-12-18T10:17:00.000+08:00

Crushed Ice

It was love
With distances
With differences
With uncertainty

It was love
Held strongly by phone lines
Bonded by trust
Tied by faith

She
Was born a dancer
With complexion
As pale as the night

He
Was born a singer
Whose voice hypnotise
Who sang her heart to life

Each
Bore a feeling
Yet hid it so deep
Unknown

Many nights and many days
And then it came
The day where the boy
Should be away

He asked from her
A chance to meet
At the airport
Where he’ll leave

Her heart flew
Her heart dance
Over the moon
And over all stars

She wrote him a note
Packed with chocolates and sweets
Tied up nicely
Specially for him

She was on time
Her heart pounding
And there’s the boy…

With a girl behind

Her heart broke
When he spoke
He had a girlfriend
So sweet and all

Is she not pretty?
Is she not sweet?
She wonders to herself
What isn’t it she?

No tears to cry
Only disappointment and sore
It all tasted so much like
Crushed ice…

dedicated to the girl and the boy. sometimes, love is the friction between two....

2004-12-15T10:12:00.000+08:00

bored. restless. lost.
i heard a romance story yesterday. a heart-breaking one. i felt like crying. am i too sentimental or what? i don't know? but the problem is, the story just keep repeating itself in my head.

chances of love...

~*
fine, fine. i've been spending hours with Hunter X Hunter. oh well, a nice anime i guess. haha. "fate" brought us together. i was suppose to buy naruto...and accidentally bought the wrong dvd. arghz. how dumb can i get? so, im still stuck at episode 46... going on to 47 and thts a long run to 64. but no matter what, i will have to finish it beofre crystal finally lend me her inuyasha vcds. and when will tht be? *wonders*

~*
time really flies.
i've changed alot since my return from china.
i forgot why am i sad
forgot why was i mad
and now
im going to change this life of mine.

2004-12-13T21:56:00.000+08:00

i wonder...
what i've done these days
should have been done months ago

i wonder...
had my heart become so shattered
that u cant heal anymore

and now,
im wondering...
what does 'always' means

so much alike
had i anytime mistook u for the other
had i once just thought that there is only one
did i...
~*

went to someone's wedding dinner yesterday night. missed the star awards on channel 8. ate quite alot. acted nice and well behaved. still, the fear was somewhat there. and then, it happened. she came up to me and pat my shoulders, something she never did before. i was shocked. i smiled. waiting for her next pounce. yet, it never came... still the same routine, she asked how was my life, how was school etc. she shrieked about our height difference, yet, this time, she din just sulk and walk away... she smiled. at that moment, i thought i must be dreaming. this very first time, she actually talked to me, chat with me, hugged me. we sat and talked, about life, about school, about adults. i felt like crying...
i was touched.

perhaps, yesterday night was a miracle. perhaps, the couple up there share their blessing with me. perhaps, sins and misunderstandings were washed away by the rain. in any way, i was glad that yesterday night was a reality.
~*

" hey, do u like stars? "
" um hmm. especially blue ones. "
" really? then i should get u one on your birthday. "
" promise then? "
" promise. "
they held out their little fingers and did the stuff. then it was time to part...
the boy ran down the hill, but, turn back again to say the last word...
" always! "
the girl smiled. yet, until now, she didn't know the meaning of the word....

always....

2004-12-10T14:52:00.000+08:00

bored! im left alone in this office, surfing the internet, editing blog, picking up phone calls like a professional. arghz. this is so boring and wow, physics homework just make it worse.

mom just brought bro to the hospital for another bone check-up and yea, they left me here. haiz. how bad can this can? no radio, no tv, no unlimited internet acess, no soul to talk to. now im missing my bed. great, i forgot to add, theres no bed here as well. *amused*

~*
updates! check out aaron's webbie okies? he's a friend from rss. heh. assisstant. think he made his layout himself. haha. find it damn cool! oh yea, not to forget that i helped to fix some probs. =) *sense of achievement*

~*
yesterday was ONE BIG tiring day.

8a.m. went for breakfast. then went for tuition. whee! we got a newcomer! she's from DHS too! ha! hmm....amaths ended at 10 though, but i stayed till 1245, throughout emaths as well. after that, i got to learn palmistry!!! so fun!

went to the movies. watched incredibles with von and eunice. i like the movie. heez, esp jack jack. he is so so so cute!

after that, i went home. prepare for piano lesson. and when it is time for piano lesson, i feel sick. i din manage to play my piece well though, got abit disappointed with my own performance. sighz. i did better last week and hell! my concert is in 2 weeks time! this is giving my headaches...

but hey, at least i got to watch inuyasha last nite! haha. im still going crazy over the anime. =) crystal, u know what to do.

~*
i cant use the internet for long, so i gtg! to sin ee, jia you ne! all the best.

2004-12-07T18:14:00.000+08:00

such a wonderful day.
cooling, yet, it's not raining.
grey.
yea, grey's the word
to describe today.

~*
++6/4 gathering++
cant believe how fast time flies. there we are, after 3 years, bbq-ing. how weird it felt, yet, i could still feel the bonding between us. 15 of us. just there chatting. there was no space in between any of us. it was just like before, 3 whole years ago. as a class, as a family. no hatrad, no jealousy, no akward. just there.

peaceful.

i enjoyed myself that day. although it was tiring, waking up early, buying stuffs, carrying stuffs, running about... yet, it was some kind of achievement, bringing 6/4 together again. satisfaction was 100%. for one whole year, satisfaction.

i wonder how long do we have to wait before we see each other again. i wonder how long such relationship last. i wonder if this class was blessed with such a teacher, whom we hate and love. i wonder... why such miracles happen in my life.

~*
she's back.
she's staying.
the heart is crying.
a moment of unsettling emotions.
fortunately,
this time the tears were of happiness.
although the chances of her going away is still high,
yet,
the hearts are comforted.
happiness within.

~*
maybe the skies had something to say
maybe they felt sad today
so they decide to wear grey today
to show their emotions
to the people below
like u and me.

im beginning to believe...

my life is changing

2004-12-03T10:50:00.000+08:00

i've changed the music. sort of having problems with the other one. i liked this song. it's from chrono cross... a game from square enix i think. not sure. lolx. just love this song. =)

~*
guess what guess what?? finally! i saw the black haired inuyasha episode which crystal was going crazy for! whooo! it was so so so sweet!! awww, cant wait to get the set of vcds from her. *excited* lolx.

~*
gtg. to get ready for tonite's bbq. wish me luck!

back

2004-11-30T15:22:00.000+08:00

came back from shanghai yesterday. phew. it's so good to be back home! =) but sadly, many things awaits me too lah. sadiz

~*
3rd dec: RSS 2001 6/4 class people... there is a gathering!! east coast park, BBQ pit C22. 6 p.m. please call me ASAP to tell me whether u r going not okies? I'll appreciate ur help. =)

this is what i call rushing. lolx

~*
had a great shopping spree at beijing and shanghai. dotz! the best thing is that they have almost everything there. branded stuffs especially. from handbags, clothes, jewellery to shoes, toys etc. everything! cool ritez? next best thing is that u can bargain until u get the price u want! whoo hoo. in just 10 mins of shooping, you'll surely get something u like, happily. haha. boy, was i glad! =)

we visited some of the tourist attractions. not bad though. long history. even though both beijing and shanghai are part of china, the people there have very different attitudes and characters. very fascinated by the habits of the people there. lolx

bought lots of stuffs back home. about 20 kg of stuffs. lolx. most of them are souvenirs though. so shuang. anyway, i watched 4 movies throughout the whole trip. hmm... ella enchanted was nice!! very funny too. I, robot was pretty cool. erh, din manage to watch sharks' tale. but i have the DVD! cant wait to watch. princess dairies II. so so so darn cutez! haha. and last but not least, qian ji bian II. wah! im so glad they actually have this show on the plane! i missed it when it was shown in the cinema. i watched the ending of love actually too. pretty romantic movie i guess.

~*
sighz. have to work harder liao. happy holidays to all!! *grins*

last momento

2004-11-16T20:03:00.000+08:00

+ it was never meant to be... was it?

16.11.2004

shattering.
that was exactly how i felt today.
was it pain?
it happened that fast.
it was like having a big pail of water splashed on u.
no warning. or perhaps there was.

i wore black today.
against the rules.
watched the movie taxi today.
it was funny, humorous. nice.

but then,
like snow.
like rain.
they just love to surprise u.
anytime. any day.
and so today.

wonders
can i believe my mom now?
that black brings bad luck
that black never bring any smiles...

like rain. like snow. like her.

15.11.2004

amazing race from eds. i had a nice nice fabulous group!! =D i had mark, ivan, june and xin rong!! they are all so cooperative! we had so much fun, even though we only manage to come in 2nd. they make us eat half a water melon with CHOPSTICKS!!! arghz. so sticky! we finished second. thanks to mark and ivan and xin rong who loves water melons! =)

first stop: tiong bahru mac. damn mean! eunice ting makes us embarass ourselves with the banana dance!!! in the public!! arghz. just because we cant speak to the manager for chicken rice. lolx

second stop: IKEA. hahaa. we manage to go pass that stop quickly. tht's when we manage to be first.

third stop: bras besar complex. this is where we were over taken. yeah yeah. matthew and claire's hopscotch thingie. ahhhh, it was so so so tiring lor. lolx. but thank god, we manage to be in the second place. good thing my group all skinny people. haha.

fourth stop: singapore river. we had to ask passerbys wear some props and take picture. most of them were nice and helped us. especially the indian tourists!! they even want us to take picture with them! haha. so nice. we had our lunch there too. 3/4 were vegetables. almost all of us groan when we saw whats for lunch. lolx.

fifth stop: esplanade. we literally ran all the way to esplanade. oh god lor. ivan is never tired! he can run and run without stopping. and lolx, he got lots of ideas on how to escape from the other group. we were so so tired trying to catch up with him. anyway, the esplanade thingie was quite a fun one. i tasted coffee creamer + sugar + chilli sauce. godz. thn muthu's socks. yucks lor. haha. then we do the telephone line thingie? haha.

sixth stop: pasir block. lolx. telematch. farni one. mark lost his umbrella there. sadiz. euncie chew hide in the void deck and hell, we looked for her in all 14 floors!!!!!!!!!! TWICE. haha. yepz..so we are very late when we arrived at pasir ris park.

seventh stop: pasir ris park. xin rong left us for her chalet. haha. we buried june in the sand. the whole scene was so darn funny!! ask claire lim. she couldnt stop laughing. haha. then we went into the sea, had fun passing rubber bands. then spend some time there slacking.

last, we went to eunice's house to bbq. =) thanks her mom for all the stuffs. lolx. i enjoyed myself lots. i think i missed out some stops. couldnt remember. was running and running. like mad woman. ivan lor! haha. no lah, actually, my group really enjoys each others' company.haha. i dun mind working with them again. lolx. cute group of people. missed them wor! haha.

yepz. i had fun. lotsa fun. thanks to the com people for having such a wonderful idea. jia you!

back to this moment, this time, this minute when the last leaf falls...

no one knows...
what will next second shows you

no one knows...
what tomorrow will bring

treasure the present...
like there's no more light to shine...

do come back... cause u gave us too little time to reach you through memories. we'll miss you, like the rain, like the snow, like the angel deep in our hearts...

always.

quiz

2004-11-13T23:03:00.000+08:00

*shurgs* bored. decide to learn from denise and go do quizes. =)

You're a Spring. You usually are very close-knit
with your friends and value everyone freidnship
you have. You're a real people person and
everyone loves how friendly you are. You're
good with encouraging people but usually don't
like to be the center of attention. You are a
social butterfly and probably are in several
circles of friends but it's just because you're
well liked and you make people comfortable.
You're both fun and wise but you are very
realistic about life.(If you can't see tje
pics, go to my homepage and look near the
bottom and find your result)

What season are you? (pics)
brought to you by quizilla

Your element is Light: Innocent, beautiful,
kind-hearted and pure. You are so sweet your
almost angelic, you find joy in others
happiness and cannot stand to see anyone in
pain. You want to make everyone around you feel
good about themselves and if someone is upset
you can tend to become rather upset as well
which means you are sympathetic and raise
others above yourself. Being as kind and
good-natured as you are people have most likely
hurt you in the past but you pick yourself up
every time. You may look fragile but you are
stronger than most tend to see. Life is
beautiful no matter how you look at it and you
understand that people make mistakes, not
everyone is perfect. You try to see the good in
the bad which is a talent few posses, dont ever
let anyone change you. You truly have a
beautiful soul inside and a heart of gold.

.:-What is your true element?-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
brought to you by quizilla

hmmm..interesting. lolx. go do quiizes when u are bored. they are amusing. =)

6.11.04

2004-11-06T16:57:00.000+08:00

Owww, my body aches like hell! went for dance today. guess what? we got an additional instructor! wheee! at first we are kinda scared lah... cause it's a guy. haha. but he turn out to be pretty ok i guess? in fact, i kind of enjoyed today's session until the last part....I rather not talk about it. things may turn out just bah.

zhang fan, dun be too sad okies? the main point is to take care of urself, recover and join us for the fun and laughters! happy holidays!

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yepz. site is out of haitus. im doing a new page to put all the photos i have here. be it eds or neoprints. blah. im not sure issit a good idea...any suggestions? im transferring some of my poems over too. no stories bah, orelse i will get bugged by cute sinee. hahaa. erh...im asking kee yann to do layouts leh, so can publish on the site too... but im still not that smart on html or java ne. see first. so if u guys have any suggestions, be it good or bad, tell me okies ne?

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oh yah! one good news! i cant believe that arts central is having anime!! though abit late, 11 to 12 p.m. on wed to fri, i cant resist the temptation!! whoo hoo! the twelve kingdoms and inuyasha! i love inuyasha lor!!! so darn cute. =)

anime lovers, must watch wor.

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lots of stuffs coming up. eds will have lots of practise for eds nite and syf. *weeps* lots and lots of body torture ne? but still, looking forward lah. eh...also an amazing race...just hope everything goes right. homework. yes. no point brooding. and yipee! im going overseas!!! im going to beijing and shanghai! whoo hoo! im so so excited to see my cousin and aunt. missed them wor. and promise, i'll buy presents!! Xcited. =)

happy holidays everyone! enjoy urself! build the energy and prepare for next year battle! =)

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things in life unexpected

good is always cast away

treasure what we have today

without hatrad in the way

reflect what you've done today

think it over and over again

are u sure u hurt no one?

which to you seems none?

do not turn away from reality

for fantasy may only be dreams

be strong and walk firmly

till the day you fulfilled your dream

25.10.2004

2004-10-25T18:04:00.000+08:00

yesh. i've gotten a midi up on the site. it's abit sorrowful lah. pity me for a while, cant find a better one. yesh, haitus sign is up too. yeps. going for o-level liao. will be back to update on site in a week. see ya!! and have fun. just tag me as well, thanks alot. =)

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2004-10-24T15:15:00.000+08:00

yepz! new layout!! whoo hoo! basically, im so proud of myself! i found this layout while browsing through websites. haha. thn i used 3 days to turn it into a blogskin and ta dah! new layout! modified the tag-board too. think i a little slow at this lah, took me hours to finally figure out how to reduce the font size. hahaa. yepz! im gonna add a few more pages to this so it's gonna take a while more. until now, this site is generally up! *shines* no music though. still figuring out what to use...hmm. any ideas? tag me. =)

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haiz. exams over liao! grades are also back le. i barely passed. *frowns* but lucky me, i passed every subject, overall, including physics. =) yepz. happy. this whole exam is the worst i have ever taken. it was so...disappointing? many people are i guess. *shrugs*

im working hard now, for the up-coming o level chinese test. *panting* haha. this one must get an A. MUST. hmph. dun care. so may all who is taking the test with me...Jia you wor!

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i went out with kee yann and marie on wednesday. forgotten the date. but hey! we had fun okies? lolx. we took neoprints and me and kee yann decided to open a make-over shop in the future. we'll charge each change-over $50. (tht's cheap) haha. basically, we took marie out shopping for clothes. giving her advices on how she look. and yesh! we gotten our aim! marie bought a sleevelss blouse, a pair of long pants (striped. she likes it very much!) and a very nice necklace. haha. think me and kee yann are potentially businesswomen. =)

the next day, we were talking about NC-16 movies. fine. it was argued that kee yann can sneak in with her looks and i cant!!! sin ee keeps telling me i look too childish. arghz. who cares? im tall enough? hahaa. sighz~ it's my nature, what can i do.

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site will be generally on haitus with me not updating soon. i will insert a music soon and a few pages. to all my friends, thanks alot and take care. =)

tears

2004-10-01T22:26:00.000+08:00

Had the english exam today... *tears* pretty tough one... sighz. but then, had plenty of rest once i reached home. i thought alot...

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damn angry today when i knew that my dad had come to fetch me because my brother asked him to do so. why? because i promised to lend a shoulder to someone to cry...thn wrong time! my dad came and yes, i knew he was rushing for time and YET! he didn't want me to go home myself! what kind of reasoning was that? was kinda angry with my little bor....but i know that it was not his fault. he didn't know my shoulders were in need...

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i thought alot this afternoon. guess that's the result of slacking too much. haha. these past few days, i realised things aren't what i also see. what i saw, was totally wrong. i dunnoe why though, it hurts to know the truth and yet, i didn't cry. bet my tears dried up or perhaps, i cried too many times over the same things. im still trying to get over this. i didn't dare tell anyone just in case i cant control and cry. so whoever came across, thanks for reading, take it that u heard what is deep down in my heart. =)

i'm starting to change. changing because i need to get over sad memories. changing because some things awaken me. no dreams last forever because there is something call the truth. hurtful. pain. broken. i wonder how long am i going to take? did i really let it go? or honestly,

do i have the courage to let it go?

2004-09-30T18:09:00.000+08:00

im under stress. believe it or not. i had cried, continuously, for 3 days. physics, exams, results and anything... just want to let go

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nothing's going right these days. everything just hurts. everything that makes sense, hurts and kills.
i nearly lost everything precious to me.
so much,
that now,
the memories hurts
says not to give up..
is that it?
im not giving up...
im just...

letting go...

is this meant to be?

2004-09-13T19:45:00.000+08:00

today... is the first day of school of term 4. final term of the year. 2 more weeks to the exams. oh well, tht's how long i'll have to survive. arghz!! im going extremely crazy!! i dunnoe how come i can score so badly for all the past tests?! now im thinking that im gonna flop my up coming bio test and maths test?! life with books just sux...

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she just didn't mean to make things worse. but just being too careful, she worsen things. she hurt someone, that she didn't mean to hurt. was it her fault? or was it just fate? no tears will do u any good, so why bother. but who will understand how painful she felt, how guilty. one may try his or her best to console her, yet no one, even the one she hurt, can truly understand how she felt...

all he wanted to do, was to probably try his ways. he might have no chance, but he still wanted to try. yet, somehow or rather, fate probably wanted to play and he was not told the truth. until then, the pain strike him like the stab of a knife, the truth had became too terrible for the heart to heal.

being too careful, or perhaps trying hard, seems to not be one of the ways to making things perfect. then tell me, whoever out there, how can we ever want things to go our way?

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mom and dad arent back for dinner, so im getting free time to be online. decided to crap here for a while before returning to bio. i wonder how long i can handle the reality. haha. alrite, i probably loan a shoulder or two, but just how long... can i hold on?

2004-09-07T21:58:00.000+08:00

had a music coming from the blog already ne. the song up is currently "simple and clean"'s midi. theme song from kingdom's hearts, by utada hikaru. liked the song since the first time i heard it. i've been listening to the music from RahXephon as well. think im already addicted. Very very nice anime. haha. it just makes u want to watch and watch. I wanted to put up RahXephon's theme song "hemisphere"one...but couldn't find it on the net, so too bad!

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Have been getting mouldy in front of the computer these days. Watching Chrono Crusade from DiVx codec and now guess what? im only at disc 6 and the whole thing is down!!! Arghz. Oh well, think im freaky right? watching animes to animes. haha. tht's me.

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honestly, have been feeling very low these days. dunnoe why though. just feel low. couldn't really laugh or smile. but good thing, i manage to kept it from my mom. haha. just doesn't know what's going wrong. everything here is like, changing and changing until im not sure how to adapt anymore. last saturday's incident was totally horrible. though i dun wana think about it, it is still horrible. I dun even know how to react?! feeling damn sick. thn yesterday... i loan wan qing's shoulders to scream. hahaa. i dunnoe why. just got pretty fed up with all the stuffs happening. sighz. when is this going to stop? im really tired. when am i going to get my break ne?

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exams are on their way. perhaps 4 more weeks or so. *heart thumping* scared. hahaa. for the first time, im thinking that i dunnoe how to finish all my work in such a short time. really really feel like slacking every moment away. sighz!!! man! my life's upside down and turning hectic! when is it coming back?! arghz. i want a life, ordinary life. something bright and nice.

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in conclusion!! hahaa. a few people to thank. wan qing and zhang fan. crystal and sinee.

animes recommended:
+ RahXephon
+ Chrono Crusade

music recommended:
+ Hemisphere
+ Smple and clean
+ 1000 words (ffx-2)

bloggiex recommended:
+ 3k's blog!!!! (try it ne!! it's so darn cool!)
+ denise's blog (she changed a pretty cool layout)
+ carmen's blog!! changed layout too! go shout at her box)

yepz. tht's all. may the one week holiday be memorable to all. =)

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let me go...

piture up

2004-09-06T22:15:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey! i got the picutre up! haha. thanks to someone. really. hahaa. very glad that the picture is up again. so sorry for the many inconveniece these days. haha!

okok. i'll update tomorrow. go find music now. thn complete this new layout. by the way, denise had her new layout up too. take a look ne?

let the angels fly...

version 4

2004-08-30T22:21:00.000+08:00

whee!!! nice nice? version 4 nice? okok. nothing very great but hey! i changed the skin of my blog! okok. slowly update.

hee's blog version 4.0:

- theme is magical. (duhz)
- blogskin template from blogskins.com
- erh...enter page's idea also from blogskins.com
- haven insert music. sorry. any idea, tag me!

haha. in conclusion, i kinda like the magical feeling given. oh yah, thanks for the many many compliments on the enter page. =)

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tomorrow's teachers' day. sadiz!!! i can only be dismissed at erh...1215?? ohmygod lor. sadiz. because i got dance performance. though im happy we got the chance to dance....but still...it's LATE! waoh. sadz.

im supposed to pack physics file too. so gtg. pack physics file orelse...siva will kill me ne. hahaa. remember to leave suggestions!!!

level camp + olympics table tennis

2004-08-21T17:05:00.000+08:00

oooh. im back from sarimbun camp! wahhaaa. practically, it was fun. was in the group of elmo-nians. hahaa! hmmm, truly, i kinda love sleeping in tents ne? very cooling. went back home on the first nite though. oh yah, i like rock climbing, heez. damn fun! like my group too cause there are always funny ideas. =)

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enough of camp. now, olympics. haha! miss chia likes ronald ne? she was so disappointed tht he lost. now watching table tennis quater finals. very excited. *hearts pumping* hope li jia wei wins! jia you!!! wah...my hands getting colder liao. hahaa

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by the way, li had just won the 3rd game by 11-0! isnt tht cool? haha. gonna go watch now. will update soon.

eds room big clean up!

2004-08-14T21:40:00.000+08:00

hmmm, the last blog entry's fonts are a little too small? still not very comfortable with blogger's new way of entering entries. haha. so pardon all my mistakes!

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today, eds people had decided to give eds room a new look! so after mint's lesson, we went to clean up the room lah. eunice ting sprayed the wall with grey paint? and yeah, with star templates. super nice effect! artistic talented i guess. yvonne and crystal were generally cleaning the windows, floor, cupboards etc. me, matthew, muthu, wan qing, eunice chew, zhang fan, denise, june, cindy, aaron and many more, helped with the clothes and props. there was so much things to sort. we manage to sort out everything in the end. some for the charity? some are left for future uses and some went into the garbage bag. =)

at about 2 p.m., matthew, yvonne, crystal and eunice went to IKEA to buy new things for the room. zhang fan and eunice went to parkway to buy camp stuffs. so...left behind are me, wan qing, muthu and june! haha. so we were left to put the clothes, props and stuffs back into the room. it was so hectic! me and june ran up and down the stairs for like amny thousand times until we are both tired. haha. we are responsible for the drinks and food. later on, four of us were like keeping the things and having lame jokes at the same time. wan qing had many brilliant ideas. some lame jokes of having each of us a tape which staes our name. haha. had lots of fun! june was such a help. thanks you very much and hey, she's a nice girl okies? very cheerful and nice to talk to. =)

at about 4 plus, eunice and zhang fan came back. wan qing was still screaming about having to free the cockroach if it show itself? haha. muthu was the hero for a day, for killing one cockroach. haha. it was so darn funny. after tht, we went to play ball, as in basketball. thn turn into volleyball, as we played with the co people. then the scouts were like having a ceremony? and gosh!! our ball just like run near to them! think mr teo kinda irritated by us. so we decided to stand stright too... show respect ne? thn i have to go take the ball...a little malu ne... *blushes* thn, after tht...went to parkway liao.

ate my dinner at parkway with mom and dad. kept listening to june's cd, cause she forgot to bring it home. haha. had a really tiring day. wonder what did the comm bought for the room ne?

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very tired now. eyes closing soon. hope tmr will be a better day. hope i dun get lost again. may everything just be fine..cause i wanna lead the life away...

oh well

2004-08-09T18:17:00.000+08:00

oh my oh my! lolx. finally can blog. finally my com seems to be ok again. sighz... on the updates eh?

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bloggiex' news:
-need to add people:
= eunice

-change link
= natalie ling

erh..haven been updating lately because of computer's error and its fear of bugs. lolx. so gomen nasai!!

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eds shines:
+ fast dance, first step, is performing for teachers' day celebration.
+ 'what u will' performed by our drama professionals (lolx) won the best script award. (3 cheerz)
+ erh..we went our on friday? took a neoprint with 8 people squeezing. =) looks cool. the 8 peeps are: eunice ting, eunice chew, yvonne, zhang fan, denise, wai lumn, wan qing and me! heez.

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dhs 3k-ian:
+ celebrated national day with lots of face-painting etc
+ chinese test coming up

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me!!:

alrite. im writing paras for this! =D so darn irritated by blog when i cant blog for so a long period of time. hmm...lots of things happened during this long long period of time.

i guess, it was some kind of low period, where luck wasnt there. i kinda fall, as in like thinking tht the world has come to its end. it was so darn hard to overcome it! i wasnt prepared... for such "excitement". it was like disappointment X a million. it's like failing tests, not getting what u want and being heart-broken. =s

i manage to overcome it. i think i took a long time though. never had such big depression before. but thank to some people, i made it through. so here, must thank these people first. alot. i mean it. =)

thankies to:

+ sin ee, for the scoldings which wake me up a little. the hugs i needed. the uniform wet. and for allowing me to vernt my anger and sadness on her.
+ eunice n crystal, for the many visits to my house to add the cheerfulness. for the many hugs i needed too. for the ears to listen. and for the time i took from u guys to listen to my craps.
+ yvonne, for the words to make me cry. for the care i needed. for the concern i needed.
+ denise, for the hugs. for the comforts. for the help given.
+ zhang fan. for the words that comfort. for the attitude that wakes me up.
+ wan qing, charlene, wai lumn, claire, eunice ting, cindy, yee tien, matthew, thanks for the many comforts and hugs.
+ muthu, lolx. thanks for sharing the many "experiences".

yepz. i think tht's all? haha. i dunnoe. it's like without them, i doubt i would have gone through those times. haha. it just make me realised that hey, i still have these people around me who cares. so yepz, thanks a million! *grins*

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by the way, today's national day!! oh well, played basketball for an hour. had pinic with al my relatives...not all though..but most. heez. hmm, we had lots of fun cycling and eating and sleeping in tents. came back at 4 p.m. and guess what?! mom is treating us to PiZzA!!! whee! i cant wait. i cant wait. haha. im excited.

before i go, just wanna say extra thanks to sinee for letting me tease her and eunice and crystal for going to tm with me. =) im happy now. really. contented...

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when tears dry, we'll see rainbow in the eye...

2004-07-18T13:22:00.000+08:00

haha. just doing it for fun.

You are Xing Ling

Which Celestial Zone character are you?
brought to you by quizilla

advent children

2004-07-13T19:55:00.000+08:00

whee~ guess what? saw the advent children trailer! it was so darn cool! haha. very mystifying and the graphics are totally fabulous. comparing it to normal final fantasy flatform such as PSI and PSII, this movie is generally surprising. and gosh, cloud looks more shuai now. lolx. hmm, for final fantasy fans (denise!), i actually wanna recommend the trailer first. the movie wont be coming to singapore as DVD until maybe next year or next next, dun wish to wait for long though. haha. anyway, for more information, try www.adventchildren.net. trailer provided, though im not sure whether is it the DVD one or the one first taken duing the games festival in Japan. haha. besides, here are a few screen shots i taken from the net.

here are the screen shots =) :

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alrite. enough for the news on ff. now my turn! haha. today is o level oral. hmm, was freaking out like mad before the oral. cause i was the erh...14th person? then was waiting and waiting. then i think too bored le, so we ended up exchanging jokes. and guess what? carmen ask me to 'zhang zui'. as in to smack my own mouth a hundred times... because we were sitting at the right side of the hall and thus, we got the two male teachers, wwho were said to be lenient. of course, we are happy. but then...i just like...for fun, say that what later sure the teachers will swop one. then, erh..suay lah. came true. so carmen and tweenie say i suay. haha. then when it was my turn, was a little scared, nervous but after a while, not bad le. not tht scared. haha. so actually, was kinda happy, or lets say hyper after the oral. haha. for once, tht teacher laugh! ooooooooh. aren't i humorous? haha.

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do maths! pack chem! study chem! sighz. gtg for now! keep tagging!

sighz~

2004-07-10T11:23:00.000+08:00

it's cloudy and cool here now. haha. very cooling cause it gonna rain. just remebered the conversation i had ytd, so i decided to climb to the roof top. very cooling. wind blows, running around me. haha. never knew roof top was the best place to cry.

i couldn't stay long since raindrops are treatening. haha. had mixed drops of rain and tears wor. but still, i sat there for 10 mins. thinking. perhaps, it was just foolishness. haha. good thing my parents are not in, neither is my bro and heng, neighbours all too busy to see... cause if they ever see me tht way, i guess they'll freak out.

just pain.
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hey denise! haha. erh, did u exactly know what im typing about? cause im not really what im writing too leh. pretty confused. hahaa. alrite alrite. shall not confuse u too. yah, u r right. but dun worry, i'll cheer up very very soon. sin ee says must lead the life u want, not let the path lead u. i going to, lead the life i want. haha. hey ee, thanks.

i'm contented.
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changed the music og the blog...just in case u din notice. i changed from piano version to piano + orchestra. think it is still pretty nice and hey! it's longer now! haha. i added a few people, like xin yan and elizabeth. heez, two very very nice friends wor. haha. xin yan, long time no see eh? but still, thanks for tagging me. and elizabeth, my long-time client, thanks for the laughters. haha.

eccentric me. lolx
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sighz, im trying to upload some pictures though. as in photos...but photobucket dun allow "jpeg" files. anyone can help me with this? email me will u? thanks so much wor. haha. need to do mr low's hoemwork le. awww, so sad. haha. see ya!

=love no more.
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screams!!

2004-07-09T22:36:00.000+08:00

she cried today. for the 4th time, she cried. because of orals. i guess the pressure on her was too great to hold. she kept very quiet throughout the journey back home. silence. i really wonder, if he hadn't say anything to her, will the impact go as great?

he had an unlucky day today. theres a chinese saying huo bu dan xing. guess it's true. although the bad luck, what made his tears roll, is her ignorance, her coldness, her sadness.

yet, two has too deep misunderstandings. never seems to actually have a happy time together. perhaps theres sweetness, yet, it lasted short.

wonders, is this true love? or just what the big people says, foolish love?

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(please note tht this is another he and she)
no words was formed from either mouths, neither was there any transportation of words between the two. to her, the days are cold. avoiding, running. although she manage to talk to him, it never lasts long. not like the olden days, where they could talk of nothing for up to 3 hours. just...not like olden days anymore.

she was amazed on the affect. one day, with total sweetness, which made her dream of many fantasies. and yet, sweetness never lasts long, just the next day, everything turns opposite. cold. helpless. she wonders, is he feeling the same way as she does too?

still helpless. pain. heart was under many manipulation. too much to handle. she's fading, truly.

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so darn sick. i have enough already. stop making me go crazy for u. stop it. enough. why is it just so hard to forget. yes, i wanna lead my own life, but how? i cant get u out, thn neither can i get my simple life either! arghz. jsut what are u thinking? can u just let me know ever?

flu~

2004-07-06T18:14:00.000+08:00

as i'm typing, i actualy wonder if im online. it's like i took the iniative to say hi...to 2 people...but i seems like im talking to the wall. (btw, the last sentence on wall was that i never need to talk to the wall again.) sighz. too invisible le.

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haven been blogging since the last super duper day. alrite, we did a damn fun farewell last saturday. kinda cool. my grp was in charge of the games and thus, oooh. im the station master! wahahaa. denise and I couldn't stop laughing when we hear our seniors sing. hahaa. they were good!

but still, the hair styling thing was the best. whao, anyone who see zhang fan will probably faint and well, wan tain looks pretty + messy. whee~ hahaa. we had a fun time... althoguh there no AGM, because there's no AGM.

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Yesterday was youth day holiday. heez...kinda a bad day for me ne. went to sgh for backbone check. man...the xray room is darn frightening. so cold. duhz. then afternoon, after a bwol of laksa thingie, i went to cgh, for the skin check up. this time, i got 2 injections. nice. not tht pain already, but still pain...

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haha. class was ok today. and yesh, keeyann, stop being so suspicious of whatever i wrote and post my craze on. no big deal mah. lolx. it's a BlOg! hahaa. sinee, dun keep looking through old poems, especially mine, it will make u sad again. lolx. tsk tsk.

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life's getting a little better. i guess it's hard when two people does not know what to say to each other and just stare. i dunnoe why im feeling bad about this. but i guess, it's the time, i lower my head to say im sorry...

so weird

2004-07-01T23:08:00.000+08:00

it's like there are no more common subject to talk between us. somehow or rather, it just fades. but this time, it is different. though no more words i can communicate with u, though there's nothing i can do with u, the feelings, are still there. i really wonder, why cant they just fades all in one time, so i dun have to make words form from my mouth, makes my mind think what can i do for u...just why? why are u still there after so many attempts of forgetting that u exist? ...it must be my fault, my fault for telling u the many thousand times that u exist. here. right here.

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so hard to believe i actually manage to go through this alone. so hard. no one culd undertand. no matter how hard i tried to explain, no one would understand. no one could. because this is just too complicated. why is it my mouth and my mind to adapt to my heart and not the other way round. how hard is it?

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there we go again. i hate eating sour plums, but how? when u feed them right into my face? just why cant i make myself...fades away....

break it up

2004-06-30T18:29:00.000+08:00

lots of things happened...in just...like 3 days. not even a week after school reopens. this is just so crappy. everything seems so.. ragged again. darn. sad things happen in eds... o level listening this saturday...tomorrow's chinese test...level camp...and ---.

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nothing to talk about. didn't want to pour out all troubles here too because there is no reason i should. everything just seems to topple. sometimes, i just dun need pity. trust me. i dun need pity. oh well, im not strong. i admit that. but still, sighz.

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alrite. i shan't type anymore. i'll type when im in better mood. see ya. take care and all the best.

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last day of hols

2004-06-27T20:26:00.000+08:00

hmm...in a few moer hours, june holidays will come to an end. It just seems like last week, that mr siva got married. haha. Really, time really flies~

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decided to study chinese after this, since wednesday we'll be having chinese test. a little nervous about it. the last time din do well...so was hoping i could do better this time. =)

finished the last of the bio report. man..this is totally torture. im still wondering what in hell is a gene gun?? and hey...do u actually need bacteria for genetic engineering?

literature...hmmm. i hope tomorrow's rehearsal will go sucessful. shan't put my hopes too high... i chose the music..evanescence's music.... I wasn't quite sure of the title. but the chorus was something about never will? *question marks* haha. doing the scene of kingshaw being locked in the red room i guess. hmm~ still hope it works.

finished all homework...never touched on revision though. guess ms loh will kill me. haha. cause i din touch chem for the past 3 weeks. *oops*

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heart is fluttering madly, wildly, horribly. really wonder what is going on for me. sighz. is like, im not even sure that im dreading school. in another case...i seems to look forward to it... perhaps homeworks can occupy my mind, from all things i do not want to think about. sometimes, i guess im just as sick. doing trigometry for fun... playing online games to occupy the heart. there was definately a time when i really wanted to stop blogging. cause whenever i blog, i will start to think. start to wonder. start to go extremely sad? or shall i say emotional? but thank god, i get over it quick.

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eds is going quite well. the farewell party will be this coing saturday, when we are having our chinese 'o' level listening. scary again. just indeed have no big idea what the hell will be going on that day. i do hope the juniors are ready for their performance as they have only a week left and hmm, legal seduction! wahaha. tht's a gay play. really. gay. haha.oh well, who knows? seniors, do enjoy our great annual farewell!

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didn't think i could type that much. shall go and study chinese now. oh yah, do tag me? and link me as well. hahaa. and...happy schooling.

tired

2004-06-27T00:18:00.000+08:00

I am so darn Pissed! Why do it have to be me! Just dun like it! The whole report....no....THE WHOLE REPORT....i did it. im contented. At least, the tears i shed through the 3 hours was not wasted. It was just...so lonely...

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anyway, back on the euro 2004 match. still cant believe france lost to erh.....greece?! I was so darn shock. oh well, the whole eds seems to be shock too. arghz. bet lsot. tonight...well..bet with two people..so either one win, i still gain. =)

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too tired to even talk. i cant believe i finished a 4 person project all by myself.. i'm not sure whether i did a good job...but im really contnted. very. just...dun wanna go through the whole experience...where no one talk, no sound..just me and silent. Just dun want to be left alone. no more....

maths remedial

2004-06-24T20:22:00.000+08:00

sIgHz! die die die die die liao lah. how in hell am i going to catch up on my maths? arghz.

today went to school at 8. lesson starts at 830. we had a break of biscuits. ooooh. damn cool. =) but honestly, i was dead hungry. but only ate a chocolate cookie which elizabeth pass to me. hmm...miss low thaught the whole chapter of trigo thingie. plus a little tiny bit of trigo of amaths.

din went for the previous remedial...so was a bit blur. thank god i got tuition for amaths..or else sure die one. haha. today's lesson was erh... a little terrible with yiwei and carmen..each by my side, making my laugh through the whole of the lesson after break. sigh. two funny girl with humorous attitude. =) arent im right?

anyway, met crystal at school too. whee~ went wild when i saw her. lolx. haha. i din expect anyone of them to be in sch though.

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anyway, GREAT news. got home in 50 mins time! believe it? wah!! haha. first time. by public transport.=) thanks to yiwei...and yah, yiwei totally make me laugh till my tears keep rolling down. anyway, yiwei? did u like ur movie? hahaa.

had about 2 to 3 hours of baby sitting. no piano lessons. which was ultra cool. but still have to go to sch tomorrow. and not get home till about...erh...930? yah. sadz. had to do bio alone too. =( sinee...when are u coming home wor?

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had a pretty funky day today. haha. oh yah...may tonite's SE concert be a success!

changed music

2004-06-23T16:11:00.000+08:00

hey hey! wheee...changed my blog's music to final fantasy X's yuna's theme. hmm, somewhat another version of suteki da ne, the theme song for final fantasy X. =). this is quite soothing though, and kind of fits the picture.

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hellingly tired these days. sick and tired. finished my maths class act liao. still left projects. plenty of things to be done.

好寂寞！真不可思议，时间总是走得比想象中快。
不管为心理作了多少的心理准备，
总是不够。
好想说再见了。觉得自己很信福，真的，我没说谎。但是，
时间的快数度，
常常让我感的非常个失落。相信有一天，
一定能达到自己的天堂。你，也如此。

wonder if anyone could see the chinese words online not. haha. i adapted this from a book. sighz...my feelings alike. =) jsut wanna hope everything can end perfectly.

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alrite should end here le. erh...wan ting, melissa, added u guys already. if anyone come across my web, please tag? so i can link ya. haha. have a nice time!

feverish

2004-06-21T20:55:00.000+08:00

This is so irritating!! Skipped maths remedial today.Wasn't feeling well, kind of giddy... couldn't walk straight...

sigh...com is having lots of probs...damn sian. here cannot go, there cannot go, cant even sign in to my email. arghz. very irritated...and great, having feevr, eating so many pills....and sleeping for 14 hours a day. sighz...

Alrite, since i cant see straight either, i shall now stop typing. thanks tweenie for her help =)

version 3 up!

2004-06-20T17:46:00.000+08:00

oh yeah! yesh. finally. after dunnoe how many weeks of looking and finding and getting an image host. yesh. new blog is up! wheeeeee~

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hee's blog. ver.3:

+ added an enter page which sounds cool enough to me
+ used an layout downloaded at the usual, blogskins.com, which is done by de. lin
+ enter page's image is from ashley's anime gallery, by Neko (thanks!)
+ no archive added yet because i changed the blog webpage. so currently, no memories to check out.
+ music as usual. from final fantasy. to zanarkand. alrite. i admit it. i love this song, so i sticking to it! haha. j/k. will find something nice to soothe ur ears asap
+ image host is photobucket. I'll have to say it is a damn great image host! love it so much. *grins*
+ tagbaord looks weird with big fonts. if someone knows how to fix it, please message me. *pleading*
+ still did not re-do the links yet. will do that asap. those who i did not link, please kInDlY tag me. with ur link. thanks
+last but not least, thanks for all people who gave me many ideas

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updates on life

today is CIP day. argh... been at Yew Tee for 6 hours. very tired. *yawn* haha. EuNiCe! How could u! Those poor fishes, u bought them...i kidnapped them and u left it there!!! they are gluping for air when I leave!!! so mean. lolx.

we had loads of fun though the perspiration. 3I had their balloon cum game stall cum stress reliever stall? haha. they made nice balloons. naughty eunice went to buy fishes and now..i wonder how they are. *looks pity*

my class sold food + drinks. business not bad. haha. looks pretty cool to me except that we have to go around under the BiG hOt sun to get people to buy our food and drinks. hmmm, u know, for many many years, today was the first time i saw fried ice cream. whooo~ hahaa. had a lot of fun

hmmm, oh yah. I wanna comment on my trip to yew tee. i spent ONE hour and a FEW minutes. arghz. but i slept through the whole journey. it was SOSOSOSO boring...but thank god, i din have to go through the whole process when I went home. ALl thanks to my tweenie's dad, who fetch me home. whoo~ thanks so much wor!
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alrite, enough of crap. still have more work to do. see ya guys soon and hey! DO TAG!

2nd post...

2004-06-16T22:50:00.000+08:00

oh great. I'm so so so darn crazy? haha. yepz, i made a enter page and leas to a NEW blog. why did i do that? cause there are some things i just dun wanna look bakc. =) I'm very very happy, very very contented with my life. alrite. crap.
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well, as u can see...no more all the nice nice tests liao. nvm! i will go re- do again. thn make this site looks mroe nice. anyway, i'm still looking for some decent looking layout which i know how to use...because I totally sux art CCS and HTML. *fainting* haha. so still loking for some nice layouts to change this snow thingie. erh...please wait as i continue to set the whole thing up.

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for now, yep, I'm halfway out of haitus. WIll continue blogging since my com is back to it's speed. *shines* *grins* yesh. ang hee's back to blog. so, keep on tagging. jsut love to see messages appearing though. *get knocks on her head*

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alrite. Updates on life now. yes, ee flew to canada le...*tears* thn he flew to some korea, aaron and sal just had his marche treat(from himself though). sigh...so left with me, clearing all gathering things, project meeting etc. hmmm...homework? Im left with maths. 2 more grins. tht is something victorious though.

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alrite...it's late now. I shall continue to search HIGH and low...for a wonderful layouts..... *yawn* sweet dreams

on the way

2004-06-16T21:53:00.000+08:00

on th way fixing on the website settings...